Ambivalence; strong feelings in opposition.

I hate myself, and I love myself. Juggling those two feelings on an everyday basis is extremely hard, extremely difficult. Usually I don't know what to do, no, I never know what to do.

I hate that I hate me, and I hate that I sometimes love me. But most of all I hate that everyone else likes me, that everyone else loves me. - When I'm not really me. Personality disorder, that's not me, that's not who I am, nor who I want to be. But most likely, who I'll continue to be.

FML,

honestly.