Psychotic, they said. The beginning of psychosis. Why wasn't I able to talk? I kept shaking, kept twitching. Images going on repeat in my head, they were there constantly, didn't leave me alone. Everything hurt, so badly. But now, I'm numb. I keep dosing off, I can't see, can't feel, can't think. Can't focus on anything. It's like I've left my body, and it's on autopilot. I can't even write this properly.

The twitching is building up, the cigarette is burning so fast, closing in on my fingers. Head is pouding. The tv is on, pillow in my lap, arms resting on it. The bandages itch so much, and not scratching is hopeless. I feel the tiredness sneaking up, my eyes are closing.

I can't stay. Good night.