Oh my god, I can't believe it

I've never been this far away from home

I find myself far from home, yes. Mentally. I don't think I've ever been

this unsure about who I am, what I'm feeling, and what I'm supposed to do. I feel myself longing for the attention I used to get, for looking

different. 'Cause It's like no one is noticing my existence anymore.

And I do need some attention, even if it's a negative one. I want to

provoke people, I need to make them see. I find myself checking out

girls on the bus, thinking about getting my piercings back,

fantasising about getting more tattoos, even in my face. I might be

going mental. Yeah, I see the irony in that comment.

Hey, I do realise that I look like a hobo in this picture,

but it is getting your attention, yea?

My heart is also far from home. New Zealand, that's where it should

be, maybe I should cut it out, put it inside a pig and ship it over? You

probably wouldn't be able to tell the difference anyway,

I'm also pink, round and filthy.